One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began
One day I was walking in a forest and I came across this signpost. Clearly, this was the way to go….
I followed the path strewn with blood red petals, but I didn’t know where it would take me.
Mary Oliver, in The Journey, the beginning of which I quoted above, continued her journey…
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
I turned a corner, and there before me I saw…..
…red petals cascading down a slope, and rising high up into the canopy of the trees. Maybe this is what I came to see? But I carried on….
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do –
determined to save
the only life that you could save.
Eventually, I found this….
…the heart of the wood.
So, this is how it is, isn’t it?
We don’t need a “goal”, or an “outcome”. We don’t need to “get” or “consume” anything in particular.
What we need to do, is find our heart.
This is as good a time as any to listen, and find out if you can hear what your heart is telling you.
We have access to more than one kind of intelligence. Not just the rational intelligence of the analytic left cerebral hemisphere in the brain, but the emotional intelligence of the heart.
You think that’s fanciful? Or just a nice metaphor?
I don’t think so.
It turns out we have a network of neurones, yes, neurones, the specialist kind of cell you find in a human brain, around the heart. There is a neural network around the heart. Apparently, the nerve connections between the brain and the heart are not just about the brain regulating the heart, they are two way. Our heart informs our brain.
And emotions? Those deep, intense embodied rivers of information and activity which course through the depths of our very being…..are they something supplementary? Are they something inferior in some way to our thoughts?
I don’t think so.
Our emotions are the organising, adaptive strategies which have evolved to enable us to survive and to thrive.
As the fox said to the Little Prince – “what is essential is invisible to the eye”.
Here’s Mary Oliver’s poem, The Journey, in full –
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice–
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do–
determined to save
the only life you could save.
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