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According to the French philosopher, Gilles Deleuze, wrote that there are three ways to think. I know, you’re already wondering how you can think three ways with one brain! Well, you probably use the three ways all the time. In fact, Deleuze claimed it was important to know about the three ways so you could both see things more clearly and communicate more effectively. You’ve probably come across arguments where one person is saying “But what are the facts? Just give me the facts!” while another says “But what is your heart telling you here?” and a third wants to know “But what does this all mean?”. These three questions arise from three different ways of thinking and whilst they are all trying to get at THE TRUTH, they are all actually dealing with entirely different aspects of reality.

So here they are –

  1. Science – thinking about function. A scientific way of thinking takes a focus on how something works. Understanding how something works is very useful. It gives us the chance to try and make it work better, or at least to improve our experience by figuring out how the world works.
  2. Philosophy – thinking about concepts. Science uses concepts to design experiments and observational studies which will throw light on how the world works. Without the concepts though we wouldn’t know where to start. Many scientists unfortunately confuse concepts with facts, thinking that both are THE TRUTH which leads to closed minds and arrogance. This causes a kind of blindness – “my view is THE correct view, yours is WRONG”. We have to be able to think conceptually if we want to better understand our world.
  3. Art – thinking about percepts and affects. What do we perceive? And what feelings are associated with our perceptions? This is not about the how of perception or the how of feelings, it is about using conscious engagement with our perceptions and feelings to understand an aspect of reality which science and philosophy cannot achieve.

I really like this idea. When I meet a patient it’s important that I am aware of my perceptions and of the feelings that arise in me during a consultation. It’s important that I have a developing conception of illness and of health and it’s important for me to understand what isn’t functioning well in this person’s body-mind.

I also like this idea when it comes to teaching. We learn better when our learning experience engages our three different ways of thinking. We need education which shows us how things work, which teaches us to to conceptualise and which engages our feelings. Remember “Gradgrind” in Dickens’ Hard Times? His view of education was that children were empty vessels waiting to be filled with facts. Ring a bell? Oh, for more enlightened educators!

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We have a real tendency to divide up our experience of the world, put the pieces into separate boxes and label them. Brian Broom talks about this in his excellent book, “Meaning-full Disease“. He says we discriminate, categorise and judge. It’s kind of how we make sense of the world. The human body is remarkable and is endowed with an incredible amount of sensory equipment to detect the world we live it – we sense light and colour, sounds, smells, textures and so on. In fact, our sensory systems are under constant bombardment. If we didn’t discriminate we wouldn’t be able to make sense of it all. We can only deal with so much at a time. We are pattern-seeking creatures, constantly trying to recognise and make sense of the sights, smells and sounds that surround us. Of course, we lose something in this process of discriminating. We ignore most of the signals coming our way and only pay attention to the ones that most interest us. As I said in an earlier post, “we are what we pay attention to“. If we want to grow, if we want to develop and change and not be stuck in deep ruts, then we need to shift our attention, to deliberately try to break our attention-habits and notice what else is in the world. I am a doctor specialising in homeopathic medicine. This is a method which is based on noticing difference. When a patient tells me their story, I don’t want to know just what symptoms they have in common with other patients I’ve known (so I can make a diagnosis), but I want to notice what is different, what makes this person unique. Picking out patterns is a good skill, but we just have to be wary that we don’t always only see the same old patterns. We also categorise everything. We love labels. Often a so-called diagnosis is nothing more than a label. I saw a little boy recently who had an itchy bottom. His mum said the paediatrician had diagnosed the problem as “pruritis ani”. That’s a latin label. You know what it means in English? Yep, “itchy bottom”. So how helpful is that label? Labels, categorising sadly tend to limit our vision. Once we place something in a box we tend to stop being aware of it, stop noticing how different it is from anything else in the same box. Finally, to judge those boxes, calling some “good” and some “bad”? I can’t remember who said it, but I remember once reading “Judgement stops thought”. How true. When we judge something and especially when we judge a person, we stop thinking, stop noticing and stop actually seeing.

Nothing stays the same. We are always constantly changing. We grow, we develop, we change. The processes of discriminating, categorising and judging create a false impression that the world is made up of fixed, separate things. It’s not true. Nothing exists except embedded in a web of connections, and nothing exists without changing. The world is not really so easy to pin down, and thank goodness for that. Life is dynamic. It flows, it moves and constantly changes. Too much pinning down, labelling and judging creates a false impression of a fixed, stagnant world. So, beware. Shift your attention, break your habits and try to see the connections between things, try to see how nothing just is anything, but instead how everything is in the process of developing and changing. Everything is becoming not being…….

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There are 4 million CCTV surveillance cameras in the UK. But who is at the viewing end? This camera is at the Floral Clock in Princes Street Gardens, Edinburgh (no clock there! Long since gone! Just a patch of earth…)

This poor man looks like he’s bored stone rigid! No wonder, this camera’s video feed must be worse than watching paint dry!

But seriously, we live in a command and control society. Who’s in command? Who wants the control?

 

surveillance, originally uploaded by bobsee.

 

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There’s an interview with David Lynch in this month’s AirFrance inflight magazine. In response the question “What kind of human being are you?” (I know, strange question!!), he replies

I’ve been practicing transcendental meditation for 33 years and it’s given me a profound love for the world and for life. It may sound slightly jarring, or seem a little out there to you, but I’m optimistic because I feel that humanity is growing more aware. I sense that a genuine dynamic for peace is emerging, and I’d like to convince people of the power that they have within themselves, of all the energy, the love, the fullness we have inside.

Well, David, what a delight to read that! That’s what this blog is all about. I hope some of these posts will contribute to that growing awareness that turns us from zombies into heroes.

He’s right you know, you DO have amazing powers of energy and love inside. Using them to grow, to connect and to create, is, I think, what life is about.

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footprint, originally uploaded by bobsee.

I took this photo last week up in the North of Scotland. I don’t know whose footprint it is but it reminded me why I started blogging. I think it’s important to remember that we don’t go through life without leaving footprints, without making impressions. But we don’t think about that as we live the average day. It’s not possible to live without making impacts on the world and on the other people who share it with us.

This is not a “carbon footprint” but it does make me think about that whole issue – how we change the world by just living in it.

You know, I think life is better when we raise our awareness of living, and that means noticing BOTH the way we are affected by the world AND the way the world is affected by us.
What kinds of footprints did you leave today? On the physical world? And on other people? Remember Yeats’ poem?

Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

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Full moon over Tokyo

Here’s a shot from my 19th floor hotel room in Tokyo tonight. That bright light up in the sky is a full moon. One of the homeopathic remedies I’m teaching here tomorrow is Antimonium crudum, one of the key features of which is “sensitive to moonlight”. Most people who live in cities these days are pretty much unaware of the moon’s phases but the full moon has a longstanding reputation for influencing our moods.  Despite that reputation statistical studies have failed to prove any of those influences. However, what interests me is whether or not YOU feel any different at different times in the month (menstrual cycle not withstanding!). Are you aware of feeling any different around a full moon? Or a new moon? A waxing or a waning room?

It’s not that the moon’s effects need be physically mediated, it’s more the way our environments affect us. Our environments include not just the physical environments in which we live but also the psychological and social environments. The frequent mentions of the effects of a full moon on lovers in stories and songs doesn’t need to be confirmed by a physical explanation. Human phenomena, life experiences, are so much more than merely physical.

So, how about it? Any lunar effects in your life?

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There’s a website called Change This. They publish articles which they call “manifestos”. I just came across this one. Nassim Nicholas Taleb argues that unpredictable events are like “Black swans” – until one is seen we lack the imagination to even think such a creature is possible basing our expectations entirely on our previous experience. Taleb says a Black Swan is rare, its occurrence has a large impact, and it is predictable only retrospectively (we explain it with a narrative we make up after the event).

It’s an interesting idea. There’s a phenomenon described in complexity science which is similar to this. It’s called “emergence” and it means the kinds of events and behaviours that occur which are brand new and have never been seen before. For example, when a particular hurricane suddenly starts to behave differently from all previous hurricanes. I see this all the time in patients. There is a terrible tendency in Medicine to focus on diseases rather than the people who have the diseases. Once a diagnosis has been made (the disease has been named) a prognosis is made on the basis of how other cases progressed. But the thing is that again and again patients just don’t comply with statistics. Take Stephen Hawking as an example. He has a disease called Motor Neurone Disease. Usually people die within two years of a diagnosis of this disease. Stephen Hawking was diagnosed over 40 years ago.

People are different. It is impossible to accurately predict an outcome for any single individual with a particular diagnosis. The future is, and always will be, uncertain. That’s not a bad thing, though we crave certainty. I once had a patient who told me her husband had been diagnosed with cancer and had been told he had six months left to live. I asked her how she felt about this and her answer took me completely by surprise (you could say it was a Black Swan!). She said “I’m angry. Very angry. It’s not fair. How come he gets to know how long he’s got and I don’t get to know how long I’ve got?!” I had to explain that actually he might not die in six months time!

But Taleb’s idea about Black Swans makes another interesting point which is about the human use of narrative to make sense of things. Even though an event might be totally unlike any event we’ve ever seen before we’ll do our best to explain it as if it had been predictable all along. This further feeds our tendency to believe in certainty and predictability.

The contemporary practice of Medicine as strongly based on encouraging decision making on the basis of what’s already known (this is called Evidence Based Medicine), but as I once heard Dr Harry Burns (Chief Medical Officer of Scotland) say “If we base all our treatments on what we already know how can we come up with new, better treatments?”

We need imagination. Without imagination we cannot see what might be. Even with imagination however we’ll still have masses of experiences which we didn’t expect. That’s how life is… I don’t want a wholly predictable life. Do you? Understand me here, I’m not saying I want nothing to be predictable. I do want to know that when I catch the 0735 Glasgow train it’s got a good chance of getting me to Glasgow at 0820 (OK, maybe one day!!). I like routines and rhythms. But I like surprises too and the fact that every single patient I see tells me something I’ve never heard before makes my day. Every day.

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There are a number of qualities in complex systems. Let’s have a look at a couple of them and see how they can help us to understand why sometimes we get stuck and why on other occasions we when we get through a certain difficult experience we feel that not only life, but we ourselves, have changed irrevocably.

Attractors

One quality is that of an “attractor”. The one attractor you’ll know something about is the kind that makes “Black Holes” – those whirlpools in space that suck everything, even light, deep into their swirling vortices. There are three kinds of attractor.

  1. Point attractors – these pull everything towards a single point.
  2. Loop attractors – these have two centres close together and anything which comes close gets swept back and forward between the two centres, flip-flopping between two alternating states.
  3. Chaos attractors – a focus of chaos, with everthing that comes near being pulled into a chaotic system.

What can these phenomena teach us about life? Well, a point attractor is the kind of thing that traps us. It might be a wound, a hurt, a bad experience. Or it might be a habit or stuck way of thinking. These are the well-worn paths that always, inevitably, end up at the same destination, producing the same outcome. It’s hard to move on, to grow or to develop when you keep going back or holding on to the same old thing. Point attractors are about stuckness. They produce routines that become ruts.

Loop attractors are those alternating states we often experience – a cycling back and forward between emotional highs and lows, between frantic activity and depression, between fear and anger. There is more variety in a loop than in a point, but they both entrap.

Chaos attractors are the most confusing of all. They hardly seem recognisable. They have no pattern, no rhythm and no predicability. Their only inevitably is chaos. These are the states we often find ourselves in when we are overwhelmed by something – bad news, loss, terror, grief. Like the points and the loops, the chaos attractors trap. At least points and loops have the comfort of the familiar, and, to some extent, the predictable. Chaos states are very hard to experience and can’t be sustained for long.

How can we break free of the pull of an attractor?

  1. Imagination. Developing your powers of imagination generates the potential for change and for movement. Without imagination it can be hard to believe that there is any possibility of breaking free from the entrapment of an attractor.
  2. Will. Determination and motivation. It’s one thing to imagine how life could be different but it takes a strong desire and determination to change to break free of the attractor.
  3. Relationships. Sometimes it takes an external influence to make the difference. This is where other people can make such a difference. It can be the attention, the love and the care of another which helps us to break free from our stuckness, our habits and ruts.
  4. Changes in circumstances. We all exist in constant interaction with our environments. As the environments change so do we. Changes in circumstances like new relationships, the ending of relationships (whether through break-up or death), loss of employment, new employment, moving house, and so on, can all exert huge power to knock us out of the old patterns and stuck places. This is why sometimes painful events can result in significant gains.

Bifurcators

Bifurcators are like crossroads. They are points where things change. With a bifurcator you usually have two possibilities – growing or shrinking. At a bifurcator the system changes and either develops, changes and grows stronger or more resilient, or it declines, shrinking or disintegrating, becoming weaker. The key thing about a bifurcator is that life is not going to be the same again. A good example is pregnancy. Once pregnant, a woman’s life will never be the same. She can never again have never been pregnant. Either the baby will grow and thrive and the woman will become a mother (and how different does THAT make a life!) or the pregnancy will not progress and the woman will experience an abortion, a miscarriage or a stillbirth. In none of these circumstances will she ever be the same again. Often there are no choices possible. Life develops one way, or it develops another. However, in many situations a bifurcator is all about making a choice. The challenges which come our way for example can be accepted or rejected. Accepting a challenge brings the potential for growth. Rejecting a challenge can leave you stuck in the arms of an attractor!

So, here is a key difference between a hero and a zombie – heroes break free of attractors, grasp the bifurcation points and grow; zombies stay stuck at the same points, in the same loops, engulfed in the same chaos, avoiding bifurcators and preventing growth.

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The story so far……
I woke up on the morning of January 1st this year and this word popped into my head “storymapping”. I thought “what’s that?” The word came from a lot of thinking I’ve done about how we experience the world.
My basic premise is this……
We live in a real physical world – an objective shared three dimensional space – but we can only experience it subjectively. There’s no way for me to know how any other person experiences, say, the colour red, or the smell of coffee. But before I even get into thinking about relationships and how we communicate with others and understand each other, let me stay with the single person experiencing the world.
Let me start by saying that the phenomena of the real physical world impact on my sensory equipment. I can’t directly experience the phenomena of light or sound, but light waves or sound waves can impact on my eyes or ears and they translate these signals into electrical phenomena sent to my brain where they are somehow turned into what I “perceive” as red, or yellow, or hissing, or screaming, or whatever. I use my brain to make sense of this information, to interpret it so that I can react or not react to it. This is how I interact with the world. It’s how I find food, drink, shelter, how I connect to other people, cope with the weather…..everything.

Tools of perception and understanding
To make sense of the signals and stimuli I use a couple of really clever tools – maps and stories.
I make maps in my mind of the objective physical world. Maps contain information organised spatially and temporarily. Maps represent the shared space of physical reality. Maps, as the NLP practitioners say, are not the territory. They say that because we tend to get confused and think that the way we perceive things IS the way things are but it is isn’t, it’s only how we perceive things to be and that perception is not static. It is malleable. We can work with it, alter it, become actively involved in creating it. We can change the way we see things, change our focus, change what we give prominence to, change the feelings we have in association with certain perceptions. So maps are a useful way for making sense of the world and for acting in the world.
If I want to eat I need a map of locations for food and I need to orientate myself on that map to see where I am and figure out how to go get food. We use all kinds of maps all the time. In fact, we perceive everything through these maps. It’s almost as if they are filters between the external reality and internal subjective experience. This is all pretty much an unconscious process. We don’t need to think about our maps or make any big deal about it, but we CAN make them more conscious.
Maps help us to organise the mass of information that bombards us continuously – sights, sounds, smells and so on – and they do this by helping us to selectively notice some elements more than others.
The maps we use are created by ourselves but often on the templates, or bases of given maps. If we live life fairly unconsciously, by that I mean without a high level of awareness (a zombie way), then we are probably negotiating the world on through a largely given set of maps. We do still make every map our own however by factoring in our past experiences, preferences, qualities and so on.
This is an interesting question. It means that there is a creative component to every map we use, but we live on some kind of spectrum of passive/active or receptive/creative (zombie/hero) kinds. If we increase our awareness then we have an opportunity to increase the extent to which we can actively create the maps we use to perceive the world. In other words, we can change the way we perceive the world instead of just accepting how its been either given to us by others or how we’ve created a view of the world for ourselves from past experiences.

The second amazing tool we use is storytelling.
Stories are our way of making sense of our experience. We tell ourselves and others stories that help us to know what something means, to help us explain to ourselves and to others what we are experiencing. In fact, we even use stories to create a sense of self – this is who I am, this is how I came to be here, this is where I am going. Stories are the way I convey my subjective inner reality to another, or try to understand the subjective inner reality of another. They are also the way I work to achieve a better understanding of shared space, of external physical reality. I do this by seeing how my understanding fits with another’s understanding.

So what if we consciously combine map-making/map-reading with storytelling and create “storymapping”? Starting with our physical reality, the space and time in which we live, collecting information from our experiences as we move through that space, and marking this information on maps in a way that we note what that information means to us, how we make sense of it, in other words, by telling the stories of our experience and tagging them onto the map of the physical space we have travelled through over that period of time.

Well, I thought, I’ll try this out with my daily morning walk to the train station on my way to work. I actually did it by printing out a map of Stirling from google but since then I’ve discovered that google maps now lets you easily tag a map and add text – just the tools I needed! Here’s my example.

I think we could make all sorts of storymaps. Here are some I’m thinking of exploring so far –

The idea is that different maps can help us to understand different aspects of ourselves. We use multiple maps in our minds all the time. We can make these physical maps as an exercise in self-awareness, self-understanding so we can give ourselves an opportunity to more actively shape our lives the way we want to.
Here are some of the possible maps I’ve come up with so far.

Map of relationships
You need to choose the scales of maps for this exercise and to focus on a particular period. The period could be the present time, or you could chart it in real time by recording relationships over a defined period – day, week, month.
I suggest using different colours of pencil for each type of relationship – relatives, work colleagues, friends/social contacts, (for me also – patients and students)
What I mean by type of relationship is what’s the main nature of the current interactions you have with this person? Sometimes a person may be on your map largely as a work colleague, other times they might be largely there as a friend.
Who to put on the map? It’s always up to you but I suggest just the people you feel you are actively interacting with – in other words, not all your cousins and aunts and uncles but only the relatives who are “active” in your experience over the period under consideration.
Geotag them – by this I mean place a tag or flag or spot or something representing them on the map where they are when you interact with them. Each geotag needs a number which we’ll use later.
There are a number of other complexities you can add to this map – size of tag relating to importance to you of this person, or size of tag relating to the amount of time you are spending in interaction with this person…..whatever you think might be useful
The reference numbers of each geotag will be expanded with text around the map which is where you’ll write the stories which describe these interactions or what they mean to you or how they affected you.

Food map
Three colours – blue for where you buy the food, yellow for where it is prepared, red for where it is consumed.
Start with the red – where you eat – add the yellow if you eat where the food was prepared and add the blue if this is also where the food was purchased – so all three colours together represent eating out somewhere. If you’re not eating out draw lines from the red spot to where the food was prepared and also where it was bought (where the yellow and blue spots will be) – over a period of time this will show you your pattern of food gathering and consumption. Each red spot should be geotagged and referenced to a short story describing the situation of the meal and what it meant to you

Sensory map
Record for a period of time (say a day) the sensations you notice. This will obviously not be ALL the possible sensations, just record the ones that strike you, the ones you feel are “notable”. Sensations are visual, auditory, olfactory, gustatory or kinesthetic. Note these as they occur to you using one of the following capture methods –
the video function of your cameraphone – making audio notes as you describe the sensation
the video function of a digital camera
write them on 3×5 index cards
write them into a pocket diary
Once you get to the end of the period of the exercise place the sensations on the relevant map geotagging them with index numbers to the storied descriptions/explanations.

Feelings map
As with the Sensory map but focussing instead on the feelings you notice

Attention map
As with the Sensory map but focussing instead on whatever catches your attention.

Activity map
As with the Sensory map but noting what you are doing over the period

What do you think? Any of these ideas appeal to you? If you do make any geostorymaps, please put the links into the comments to this post.

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Maps

There are two major ways in which we experience and understand our experience of the world. One of these is narrative and the other is mapping. We use narrative to make sense of our experience and to create a sense of self. We use maps to organise all the information that is constantly flooding our brains. All kinds of maps to situate ourselves in the world and to create some kind of order which allows us to navigate the spaces we live in. Maps are interesting though because they are not passive. When we lay a map on the world it focusses our attention and it predetermines our perception (you can’t see what you don’t know).

Here’s a map of the countries I’ve visited. This is from an interesting site which lets you tick, on a form, the countries you’ve visited, and it then automatically creates a map of the world with the countries you’ve visited coloured in, in red. I guess you could tell from this map that I live in Europe! Interestingly, the creator of this site has recently added another map “by popular demand” – the states in the USA which you have visited. Guess which country’s inhabits asked for that one?

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