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Breaking and Entering is the new film by Anthony Minghella. I watched it on the plane last night on the way home and it completely grabbed me and reduced me to tears that took ages to stop. It’s Juliette Binoche’s acting that does it for me. I think she is SUCH an amazing actor. There are two scenes that really, really moved me and they both involved her. One is where she begs the Jude Law character for help. Begs desperately, hysterically. And the other is a very quiet scene towards the end where in response to his courageous act of kindness she looks at him, with an intensity that transfixes you, and then a tear appears from the corner of her right eye and slides down the side of her face. Oh, that did it! I started right there and didn’t stop, right through the credits which roll to the soundtrack of a beautiful piece by Sigur Ros that seems to hold you in that intensity of emotion, holds you steady, till you think this feeling, this upset, can’t go on any longer then it increases. Heart-rending.

Here’s the trailer

David Lynch

There’s an interview with David Lynch in this month’s AirFrance inflight magazine. In response the question “What kind of human being are you?” (I know, strange question!!), he replies

I’ve been practicing transcendental meditation for 33 years and it’s given me a profound love for the world and for life. It may sound slightly jarring, or seem a little out there to you, but I’m optimistic because I feel that humanity is growing more aware. I sense that a genuine dynamic for peace is emerging, and I’d like to convince people of the power that they have within themselves, of all the energy, the love, the fullness we have inside.

Well, David, what a delight to read that! That’s what this blog is all about. I hope some of these posts will contribute to that growing awareness that turns us from zombies into heroes.

He’s right you know, you DO have amazing powers of energy and love inside. Using them to grow, to connect and to create, is, I think, what life is about.

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Harry Eyres’ column in the Weekend FT this weekend was about colour vs black and white photography. He was making the point that he had always preferred to work with black and white, but when he printed some old colour slides of his father’s he found the colour made the photographs much more emotional. This is an interesting observation and I think it happened for him because the slides were about family, specifically about his last holiday with his grandfather. Our visual memories always seem to be in colour, don’t they? So colour photos, personal colour photos, can much more powerfully reconnect us to strong, emotional memories.

I think colour memories also begin to produce largely subconscious general responses to particular colours. I read this article while waiting for a connecting flight to Edinburgh in Charles de Gaulle airport this morning. The amazing thing for me is that the particular colour photos Harry Eyres was writing about were taken around Tain and Dornoch, exactly where I spent a few days with friends at the end of the previous week. My friends are South African and commented on how the colours of the north of Scotland were so reminiscent of the colours of Africa for them – until we came across the gorse in bloom. That incredible yellow is utterly Scotland for me, especially next to blues and browns. Later in the year when the heather comes into bloom it’ll be the shades of purple which will do exactly the same for me.

So that got me thinking (surprised?)……

  1. If memories are usually in colour, why do many people say they don’t usually dream in colour? (I always dream in colour!)
  2. Which colours create which emotions for you? (I know that psychologists have ascertained common colour influences but what about your personal responses?)
  3. Yet again, I am struck by synchronicity. What are the chances that first of all, Harry Eyres would have been to that particular part of Scotland and the photos from that very holiday were the ones which stimulated him to write this particular piece? And secondly, what are the chances I would read it? (I don’t buy the FT, just happened to be one in the airport lounge). And, thirdly, what are the chances that I would have just taken photos in that very same part of the world mentioned in the article?

footprint, originally uploaded by bobsee.

I took this photo last week up in the North of Scotland. I don’t know whose footprint it is but it reminded me why I started blogging. I think it’s important to remember that we don’t go through life without leaving footprints, without making impressions. But we don’t think about that as we live the average day. It’s not possible to live without making impacts on the world and on the other people who share it with us.

This is not a “carbon footprint” but it does make me think about that whole issue – how we change the world by just living in it.

You know, I think life is better when we raise our awareness of living, and that means noticing BOTH the way we are affected by the world AND the way the world is affected by us.
What kinds of footprints did you leave today? On the physical world? And on other people? Remember Yeats’ poem?

Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

Stirling Castle and Wallace Monument, originally uploaded by bobsee.

What does it mean to live in a place with a castle? I was born in Stirling, Scotland, and now, after a few years living in Edinburgh, I live in Stirling again.
The town of Stirling grew up around the castle and in my opinion it’s the loveliest castle in Scotland. I do like many other castles but for different reasons. There’s something of real beauty about this castle and the fact it’s not a ruin somehow gives it continuing power over the town and countryside around it. It has lovely gardens inside the castle walls and that’s one of its most unique features.
For me, this castle, which I see every day (unless I’m away on a trip), gives a sense of history, of roots, of durability, of strength and of constancy.
I BELONG here. I feel a sense of home that somehow stretches way back to long before I was born here.
For some people a castle is scary. They think of ghosts, or of soldiers, and, sure, there have been many soldiers in Stirling Castle over the centuries and there may well be ghosts (but I don’t know anyone whose ever seen one there!) Stirling Castle isn’t scary for me. I draw strength from it, power from it, a sense of reassuring calm from it.
If you look carefully you can see Wallace Monument behind the castle. It’s a powerful symbol of this area too but it doesn’t have the same impact as the castle for me.
I realise as I write this that our experience of our lived environments is complex, affected by both personal and collective histories. For every one of us a physical structure (like Stirling Castle for me) not only influences how we feel but we interact with it, imbuing it with our own views, our own perceptions, our own stories.
What physical structures influence you?

On the plane to Tokyo I watched three movies. The best one (the one I’ll buy on DVD to watch again and again) was “Stranger than Fiction”. One of my all-time favourite end of movie voice-overs is Kevin Spacey in “American Beauty”. I play that end scene frequently and it gets me every single time. Well, at the end of Stranger than Fiction we hear Emma Thomson as Kay Eiffel saying this –

As Harold took a bite of Bavarian sugar cookie, he finally felt as if everything was going to be ok. Sometimes, when we lose ourselves in fear and despair, in routine and constancy, in hopelessness and tragedy, we can thank God for Bavarian sugar cookies. And, fortunately, when there aren’t any cookies, we can still find reassurance in a familiar hand on our skin, or a kind and loving gesture, or subtle encouragement, or a loving embrace, or an offer of comfort, not to mention hospital gurneys and nose plugs, an uneaten Danish, soft-spoken secrets, and Fender Stratocasters, and maybe the occasional piece of fiction. And we must remember that all these things, the nuances, the anomalies, the subtleties, which we assume only accessorize our days, are effective for a much larger and nobler cause. They are here to save our lives. I know the idea seems strange, but I also know that it just so happens to be true. And, so it was, a wristwatch saved Harold Crick.

Kay is an author whose voice Harold (played by Will Ferrell) hears in his head. Hearing voices that nobody else can hear is usually regarded a sign of mental illness but Harold refuses to believe that. The voice is clearly narrating his life as if he is the main character in a novel. That would be disturbing in itself but when the narrator makes it clear she is about to kill off her main character Harold decides he has to find her and persuade her to change the ending – he doesn’t want to die yet! It’s a clever movie based on a really interesting idea. After all, aren’t we all the main characters in the stories of our lives? Where do the stories of our lives come from? Are we both author and reader as we create a sense of self? I think so!

There’s a good scene where he goes to consult a psychiatrist who diagnoses schizophrenia but when he declines medication and asks for an alternative solution she sends him to a Professor of English Literature (played by Dustin Hoffman). I love that this is the character who helps him make sense of this problem rather than a doctor who prescribes drugs. This is a scene I think I’ll use when teaching medical students.

A big added bonus is the character Harold falls in love with, Ana Pascal, played by the wonderful, always interesting Maggie Gyllenhaal. She plays unusual, challenging quirky characters so well. Did you ever see “Secretary“? Probably one of the worst packaged DVDs I’ve ever bought – terrible cover! It’s actually one of the most challenging movies about relationships and sexuality you’re ever likely to see.

So does Harold die at the end of the movie? Dustin Hoffman makes it quite clear the novel is great with the ending which kills Harold off (and tries, successfully, to persuade Harold, that’s that how it should be left), but, he argues with the author, that with a different ending the novel would be just ordinary. What do you think of that? Is it the ending that makes a novel great? Reminds me of that Penguin project Amy blogged about.

“This relentless restlessness liberates me,” Bjork sings in “Wanderlust,” which she calls the album’s manifesto. “I feel at home whenever the unknown surrounds me.”

These lines leapt out at me as I read this interview with Bjork in today’s International Herald and Tribune (no, I don’t read this paper every day but I’m in Tokyo this week and the hotel pops a copy under my door every morning). She’s being interviewed about her new album, Volta.

What strikes me are two statements here. “This relentless restlessness liberates me”. I so identify with that. I know it’s good to rest and it’s good to be still at times but I have this passion for life and an insatiable curiosity and wonder about the world. I know what that relentless restlessness feels like – and it IS liberating! We hear a lot about balance these days but we grow by pushing at the edge of things, accepting challenges, moving out of our comfort zones. The second statement is a really interesting one about creativity – “I feel at home whenever the unknown surrounds me.” Now, a lot of people are scared these days, and they are particularly afraid of the unknown. There’s an incredible drive for certainty and control in our society today. But creativity doesn’t thrive in controlled conditions. The biological concept of emergence is about the unexpected happening – the unknown and unknowable – until it happens – its the Black Swan.

Creativity is a basic human condition. It comes out of exploring, out of a movement from the known to the unknown.

Full moon

Full moon over Tokyo

Here’s a shot from my 19th floor hotel room in Tokyo tonight. That bright light up in the sky is a full moon. One of the homeopathic remedies I’m teaching here tomorrow is Antimonium crudum, one of the key features of which is “sensitive to moonlight”. Most people who live in cities these days are pretty much unaware of the moon’s phases but the full moon has a longstanding reputation for influencing our moods.  Despite that reputation statistical studies have failed to prove any of those influences. However, what interests me is whether or not YOU feel any different at different times in the month (menstrual cycle not withstanding!). Are you aware of feeling any different around a full moon? Or a new moon? A waxing or a waning room?

It’s not that the moon’s effects need be physically mediated, it’s more the way our environments affect us. Our environments include not just the physical environments in which we live but also the psychological and social environments. The frequent mentions of the effects of a full moon on lovers in stories and songs doesn’t need to be confirmed by a physical explanation. Human phenomena, life experiences, are so much more than merely physical.

So, how about it? Any lunar effects in your life?

Across on the Ririan project there’s this great post.
Steve Jobs is a really inspring character. You get the impression he just loves what he does in life and he’s so creative! I’m a mac convert over the last 18 months or so. I had used Windows pcs for years and years – yep, right back to those earliest of Windows years and up to XP, but then my wife bought me an iPod for Christmas 2005 and I couldn’t get it to work with my ageing Sony Vaio with its USB 1.1 ports so I went out in the January sales and bought an iMac. Oh my! Did I love it right out of the box! Not only did it set itself up without a hitch but it found my internet connection and configured itself without a problem and when I pressed the button that said “add printer” well, blow me, it just went ahead and did exactly that! I had NEVER had such an easy straightforward experience with Windows pcs. And the machine was just lovely to look at. A friend called and asked “where’s the box?” – he meant, where’s the tower that the computer lives in! There isn’t one! Elegant, that’s the word. Anyway, I started using iTunes and soon got into the get all my CDs onto the computer project. Just under 7000 tracks later they’re all there and new ones getting added as soon as I get the wrapping cellophane off the boxes (hey, that’s another story entirely! Packaging rage!!). The iPod goes EVERYWHERE with me. I completely love it. Next up I got into iPhoto hooking up my new digital camera and you know its just that everything works so easily experience that gets to me. It still amazes me. So when it came time to upgrade the ageing Vaio (OK, it was well past time) I bought a Powerbook. I just cannot imagine wanting to use Windows ever again.
For me, the mac is my creativity tool. For words, for pictures and for music, and I have barely scratched the surface with them so far.
So for me, Steve Jobs counts as a hero.
Here’s the summary of the quotes the Ririan project used to collect their “10 golden lessons”

  • “Innovation distinguishes between a leader and a follower.”
  • “Be a yardstick of quality. Some people aren’t used to an environment where excellence is expected.
  • “The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you
    haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters
    of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.”
  • “You know, we don’t grow most of the food we eat. We wear clothes
    other people make. We speak a language that other people developed. We
    use a mathematics that other people evolved… I mean, we’re constantly
    taking things. It’s a wonderful, ecstatic feeling to create something
    that puts it back in the pool of human experience and knowledge.”
  • “There’s a phrase in Buddhism, ‘Beginner’s mind.’ It’s wonderful to have a beginner’s mind.”
  • “We think basically you watch television to turn your brain off,
    and you work on your computer when you want to turn your brain on.”
  • “I’m the only person I know that’s lost a quarter of a billion dollars in one year…. It’s very character-building.”
  • “I would trade all of my technology for an afternoon with Socrates.”
  • “We’re here to put a dent in the universe. Otherwise why else even be here?”
  • “Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s
    life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of
    other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown
    out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to
    follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you
    truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

I got that summary from Lifehack, a blog I read regularly and thoroughly recommend.

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Now here‘s and interesting piece of research. Meyers-Levy and Rui Zhu from the University of British Colombia have shown that ceiling height affects the way we think. When the ceiling is higher, people think more abstractly and when it is lower they think more specifically.

Now that’s interesting! Because they are not saying that one particular ceiling height is good and another bad but that the physical environment in which you sit or move will be conducive to a particular way of thinking.

So, next time you want to be creative, think freely, brainstorm, or whatever, maybe you should get yourself into a room with a high ceiling! What about outside I wonder? Is that better? But, next time you want to focus in on the specifics, the details of a piece of work you might be best to find a more tightly enclosed space. Reminds me of something I read about writers who use a garden shed to write in! I wonder if the different kinds of rooms writers write in suit different kinds of writers?

What do you think? Are you aware of the effects that a room’s dimensions can have on your thought processes?